I just close my eyes because I might see your face.
I just close my mouth because I might hear your voice.
I just close my ears because I might hear of you,
but I could not close my heart because I love you...

hello all , ryyyan here . couldnt sleep , was waiting for a reply from baby .
but i think she fall asleep . maybe too sleepy. hah, nvm .
today afternoon dismissal from camp , my buddies asked me to join them at lan -gaming then dinner at aljunied . was going according as plan , told baby . but baby wasnt very happy about it . she doesnt likes me going out alone without her,maybe cos too many strangers , makes my baby worried . i want my baby to know ,f you're asking if I need you, the answer is forever. If you're asking if i will leave you, the answer is never.if you're asking what i value, the answer is you. if you asking if i love you, the answer is I DO!! baby,trust me oks .im a good boy ahh =D
baby baby , hubby apologize for anything that i say wrong . hubby stupid de ok , dont angry me ler .sorrrrrrrrrrry x 128371231241203712371237123213 .

As I look back upon my life i have done many things that i thought were fulfilling, but only realized that there was still a void. Something was missing, keeping me from finding true happiness. I was always looking for it, not intentionally, but looking nonetheless. I have been to many places, met many people, done many things, engaged in lots of hobbies and pastimes, nothing seemed to fill that empty spot inside myself. After a while, i tend to get used to it. it almost seems to be normal. Mind you life isn’t bad, it just seems that perhaps it could be better? So after a while i just seem to accept that this is how life is supposed to be and maybe i will just live with it. But i see people who seem to be genuinely happy and content and i wonder why i can’t feel the same. So i decided to just try to make the best of it and find happiness in every little thing that i can,until i kind of start to loose a little of your own identity. i started to quit really participating in life, because it starts to become too much effort for amount of work it takes. i still go to parties, see people, do your hobbies, but you find yourself sitting back and watching, not really getting “into” whatever it is im’re doing. Wondering why you are even bothering, because the people don’t interest me anymore, the hobbies become tedious and all they’re really good for is a chance of escape from my dull existence. I happened to meet someone who stood my world completely on edge, shook my life up and added excitement and true joy to my life for the very first time. I no longer have to look for happiness, I have more than I can measure with you. Those little things I tried to fill my life with are now just garnish on a truly wonderful existence. Something that I never knew could even be possible. As I write this I am overwhelmed at how glorious the rest of my life can be sharing this newfound joy with you. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to express to you the magnitude of love I have for you, or how deeply you’ve touched my soul, just by being who you are. Hopefully I’ll have many years to try. This isn’t meant to be a love letter or anything like that, it is just a true reflection on what my life was before I met you, and how much you have given me in the short time we’ve been together, and the hope and aspirations of someday proving to you how thankful I am for you and how precious you are to me.

With all of my love, heart and soul, yours forever and always


Sometimes at night,
When I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you,
And then ask myself "why?"
"Why do I love you?"
I think and smile,
Because I know,
The list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice,
The warmth of your touch,
So many little things,
Make me love you so much.
The way you support me,
Even my silly actions,
The way that you care,
And show such devotion.
The way that your kiss,
Fills me with desire,
And how you hold me,
With the warmth of a fire.
The way your eyes shine,
When you look at me,
Lost with you forever,
Is where i want to be.
The way that I feel,
When you are by my side,
A sense of completion,
And overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream,
That all involve you,
The possibilities that I see,
The things that we can do.
How you finish the puzzle,
That lies inside my heart,
I could go on for days,
Telling of what I feel,
But all you really must know is...
Hubby's love for you is REAL. x3

If enduring pain, braving shame,
despising one's self for the sake of affection
and accepting misery without question is the definition of love -
then, I LOVE YOU
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